I had some serious thinking to do. I debated with myself all week on what the smart thing to do was.
The smart thing, of course would be to quit. This past year has been anything but profitable. I haven't had an order in months. My etsy shop is collecting dust.
My hopes were dwindling and I was almost ready to throw down my brushes. When I couldn't make a sell for a charitable cause it almost broke me.
But then I realized that sometimes the smart decision, is not always, the best decision. Where would anybody be if they lived their life soley based on numbers and the safest options? How many had to get to where they wanted with a little bit of recklessness and a whole lot of distant day dreaming?
I couldn't walk away from this thing I had grown from nothing, only to leave it to become nothing again.
I also came upon a second realization. That my poor judgements and self criticism was the cause of this downhill climb I was doing.
Freedom Runs had a quaint start, but it was a start. I made some serious bad calls and lost the trust of two clients and I will never forget or forgive myself for the silly mistakes that caused me business.
I have tried my hardest to do better since then. Except that's not true. I did not try my hardest, which is why I was left making this decision.
I want to apologize to everyone who believed in me. To everyone who has supported me. To everyone I messed up with.
I was not putting my all into this dream of mine. I almost gave up. I let myself fall into a rut of "what ifs" and "could haves" and that is a deep hole to dive into.
I promise from here on out, you will get nothing but my best. There will be no half assing and no procrastination. You will only see what I have poured my heart and soul into and nothing less.
I'm giving Freedom Runs a new start.
I'm giving myself a second chance.
I hope you will do the same.
Be reckless with me.
Let me paint you a day dream.
Sincerely, honestly, whole heartedly,
Founder, creator, dreamer